This fortnight did not culminate in a weigh in, for reasons I explained last time. The plan was to give it a month, then start seeing Cathy's replacement. I'm starting to think, more and more, that I should stop going. Not because I don't want to continue watching myself flounder, but because she hasn't told me anything for a good while I didn't already know. This issue is my comfort eating, it isn't that I don't know what I should be eating. I could write a phD on what I should be eating.
Also I've decided to keep going with Fernanda, bless her tiny little Brazilian self. She's going away at the beginning of November though, so we'll commence normal 10-sessions when she returns. In the meantime I've been mimicking what we've been doing at the gym together and am rather satisfactorily sore afterwards. I'm cautiously optimistic. She's also qualified to be a dietitian as well if required, so that base will be covered. Also it feels like a clean break to leave now. I know she probably wouldn't interpret it as such, but I would have felt bad leaving Cathy, like I'd given up or had no faith in her or something. I overthink these kind of things.
So I don't have my dietitian scales anymore. Determined to not have scales in my house, so my new reference scales are the ones at the gym. I'm also measuring myself each session (twice weekly) so I don't get any unpleasant shocks and can see how things fluctuate more accurately.
All this means there'll be four sets of weights in these fortnight posts, normally, but I only did this twice this week. Behold:
Wednesday: 97.8kg (down 1.4kgs)
Sunday: 97.4kg (down 0.4 kgs)
No one congratulate me!! I've no reason to think this sudden drop is anything but changing a set of scales. The challenge now is to see where I go from 97.4 onwards, and not focus on the discrepancy between scales.
Also I've been migraining the last two days and home from work, which means I've been living off cereal, m&ms, iced green tea and my improvised green/purple smoothie-thing. My body, understandably, has gone a bit berserk at my sudden lack of protein.
Ugliest smoothie ever
1/2 a green apple
1/2 a red apple
1/2 a cup of frozen berries
A gratuitous handful of baby spinach leaves
1/2 tbsp of chia seeds (oh hai, Sarah)
1/2 cup of water
1/2 cup of milk
This is a slightly less virtuous version of one I saw on WellnessWA - that one had no milk, added an avocado and a cucumber. And I think had half a banana instead. It's actually a little more calorie-heavy than you'd expect, but I don't eat fruit much otherwise and thus it's dietitian approved. Also suspiciously filling, more so when there's milk in it.
So I'm trying not to over think or overreact to anything weight/exercise related right now. And in the spirit of distraction, here's some JGL.